Searching

I've been having a couple of pretty similar dreams.


The last time I had similar dreams was 2-3 yrs ago when i kept dreaming about falling from high bulidings. They stopped a long time ago. Now i know that they symbolize insecurity, but i dunno what the dreams i'm having now mean.


I've been dreaming about searching.
And not finding.

I've had 3 till now.

In the first one, i was searching for this guy in a party.I was in a club or something and searching for that guy on the dance floor. I desperately tried to find him, prodding everyone in the crowd to ask. I was still searching, when a phone began to ring. i realised it was my phone and i hoped it was the guy calling. then i woke up to see that my phone was ringing in reality.


In the second one, i was in the library, apparenty in school, because i was worrying about the period ending, but it didn't look at all like our school library. I was searching for a book. I kept searching. And searching. And searching. I was running around everywhere, trying to find it. But then the bell rang and i woke up.


In the third one, i was in a metro station with my parents. We were waiting for a train. There, i was searchingfor tis type of chocolate/biscuit sorta thingy in the bakery there. I kept searching through these trays and trays of assorted pastries and things, trying to find it. I couldn't before the train came and i had to go.


Why the hell am i searching for things!?!??!
Why don't i get them!?!??!

*sob*